crying is silly some times

so yesturday was an ok day. not good but just all right. i guess it was better than he days ive been having recently. so i had lectures yesturday and almost fell asleep in them cause i was so tired. i havent been able to sleep hardly at all but not sure why. and then i had to go to bio lab which i normally dred doing but today we got to have a piece of candy so we could study how the jaw works and then we got to play with human skulls which i found highly exciting. and it was such a beautiful day. though a little windy. after abby and i whent to the library and did some studying and it actually worked this time. normally when we study together we just end up talking to eachother and no homework ever gets done but yesturday we were being very productive and then we got interupted by an invite from A's boyfriend ryan to go to our friend jojos birthday party so we whent running over to montana ale works for dinner with them and talked for a really long time. then we piled in ryans car and headed to crusades. we had a monolog (thats not how you spell it but what can ya do :) ) and he was really good. and it was kinda emotional for everyone. but it was good. and so it was towards the end and we were sitting with most of the people who were at the party with us and the last song came on and was playing softly and the guy was like take this time to pray and say watever you need to christ. and for some reason i started to cry. and you probably know i dont cry that often. expecially in front of people. and there i was. crying. and i couldnt help it. i think it was the first time any of them, Abby or A, have ever seen me cry not to mention all the others that were there. sooo embarassing. but then the song was still going and then they started to play louder and singing started and everyone stood up like always to join in and the crying just got worse. i felt so retarded but it was good at the same time and it was so hard for me to stay standing but luckily abby was standing right next to me and she wraped her arm around me and tried to help me stand cause my legs were giving out. it was bad. so yeah. thats my storie. and im not really sure what i just wrote cause im not going to re read it. so there ya go. :)
anyway... so spring break is over and we are back to the torture again. i think i have at least one big test every week untill school is out. yeay!!! im so excited. :( but it shall be good when its over. ahhh but life goes on.

k. peace out